"The first ad best victory is to conquer self." Plato.
Can I conquer this habitual drive to that leads me to fail in this task I have set before me? That's the question I ask myself this evening.
Will I do as Esau and sell my birthright for a few spoonfuls of porridge? Sell my birthright for a few moments of pleasure that will only end in disaster? My birthright being God has put this on my heart to do this task of eating properly. My birthright being, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." (Philippians 4:13 KJV)
In my attempt to search the scripture, I think, "Guard your heart with all diligence for out of it are the issues of life." (Proverbs 4:23) KJV. My heart becomes troubled because I cannot discipline myself to accomplish that which The Lord has put on my heart to do. My heart becomes troubled because the doctor is troubled for the large number on the scale. Then I tell myself, "for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith." (1 John 5:4 NIV)
From what I gather the "victory" can be ours! It's there for the asking. We must depend on God in every aspect of life. May God grant you the victory when you seek his word and his will in your life's challenges.